Sorry its been so long

Ok so we had our first ultrasound on June 15. There was one baby and one little heartbeat. Laying there on the table and staring at the little screen was incredible. The tech was pointing out all kinds of things. I was looking at it and thought to myself "I don't see a heartbeat" no sooner did I think that the Tech said "oh look there is the heartbeat". Of coarse I started to cry at that point. This is real after all this time we are finally going to have the baby we have dreamed about for years.

We are now 7 weeks pregnant and I am feeling pretty good. I am extremely tired, the morning sickness is just starting. Some days I feel great others not so good. We go for our first Doctors appointment on June 30th. I will continue to update you all. I promise sooner rather than later:) Oh and based on the ultrasound our little miracle should make its appearance around February 7, 2006:)

WE DID IT.....

We found out On Wednesday June 1st we are finally expecting. After 23 months, 15 cycles, 5 rounds of clomid and 2 IUIs we are finally going to be parents. It is very early but we are due in February 2006. Our first u/s is scheduled for June 15. We would like to thank our friends and family for their love and support. We will certainly keep you all posted on our progress. I guess our Infertility Blog just became our Pregnancy Blog:)

We are on our way....

We had our 2nd IUI on Wednesday. The next 2 weeks are the worst part. Any person trying to get pregnant knows the 2ww (2 week wait) is tough. You spend 2 weeks over analyzing every twinge, cramp and possible "symptom". Once you start the journey of trying to conceive (ttc) you read up on all the possible symptoms. During the 2ww you convince yourself that every little twinge you feel must be because you are pregnant. You also learn during the ttc journey is that all possible pregnancy signs are the same same symptoms of PMS and your monthly visitor. You spend 2 straight weeks obsessing and over analyzing everything. Hopping against hope that the 2ww turns into the 9 month wait to meet your child. So I will end this by saying let the obsessing begin.......er ummm continue........

Here we go again…..

Here we go again….
I know its been a while but there hasn’t been much to write about. We started our follie check on Thursday. I had one on the left that was at 14mm and that was about it. Since I can’t trigger until they are at 18mm, I went back yesterday. It was kinda weird being the only patient the whole day, but after all it was Saturday. So yesterdays scan was a bit better I had 16mm, 10mm and 9mm on the left side. The right side was certainly looking much better this time with 2 at 11mm, 10mm and 9mm. Still none of them big enough. I go back tomorrow and hopefully give myself the trigger shot tomorrow night and have the IUI on Wednesday. I just hope it works this time

The Softer Side…….

Okay so now that the technical stuff is out there it is time for the other stuff. We could have never imagined how long it would take for us to start a family. The expense both monetary and emotionally goes far beyond what we had anticipated. We have seen both my sister and his sister get pregnant and give birth to beautiful baby boys. One of my best friends from college and her husband struggled to get pregnant but after a few months were successful. Their son will be born in the next month. And Jay’s younger sister is due around my birthday.

With each passing month we get more and more discouraged. We also get more and more doubtful it will happen. Unfortunately adoption or IVF are far too expensive and there for not an option at this point. It get increasingly difficult to attend baby showers and birthdays. The advice we get from our loved ones although I am sure well meant only makes the whole situation harder. Since my long cycles and short Leuteal Phase are the only causes for the IF “just relaxing” isn’t going to work. Without the drugs that I take even if we did get pregnant it would not last.

I do need to say that nothing I wrote here is aimed at anyone, this is my form of cheap (free) therapy. I am certainly open to any questions just email me. This is very hard for us to deal with and having our friends and family around us for support is great. These entries are meant to educate our loved ones and to express our feelings. If you have made it this far then it is obvious you are interested in what we are going through and a willing to support us. Stay tuned…..